Yes, it has been. My absence from both blogs as well as facebook has probably caused much more than a small whimper in the world of the interwebs, but I know there are a few out there that were probably wondering if I’m still alive.
Yes, I’m still alive, news of my falling off the ends of the world are greatly exaggerated. I’ve had personal issues, and conflicts with immediate family that have kept my mind preoccupied. As well as working on commissions, a fur suit, and trying to pick up more hours at work to make ends meet.
I put more of my loans into forbearance last month. Apparently that was the wrong thing to do because that means I’m not taking my debt seriously. Honestly, I did it because I wanted Sallie Mae off of my parents rumps, and couldn’t afford to pay any of the amount they had set for me to pay. I was in between getting hours at the theater, and had just recently quit a job that was a complete waste of my time and gas money. I know my debt is seriously business, I truly do. I do the best that I can, but I also have to make sure I can pay my rent, bills, insurance for my car, put gas in my car, eat food, and feed my dog. I’m just lucky I’m a very hearty person health wise, because I could never afford to go to the doctor if anything were to happen. My feminine health has taken a serious back seat to everything else. I haven’t been able to afford birth control for the past year. No, it’s not because I’m sexually active, which is no one’s business, it’s because without it, I don’t have a period. I have ovarian cysts, which I know are rather common in women, but when you don’t have a menstrual cycle without birth control, keeping up on that tends to be important, and I haven’t had it, but I digress.
It’s been rough, I was hoping this year would be less stressful than last, but so far it seems like it’s going to be fighting for the top spot on, most stressful year of my life. I know life is hard, life isn’t fair, no one gets an easy ride. But damn-it, I would love for the occassional break in insanity.
Posted on July 8, 2011
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